*hugs* Take a deep breath.. exhale.. and keep doing that. Sit up tall, place your feet on the ground and breathe. Keeping breathing slowly until the oxygen rich blood gets to your brain, your mind stops racing and your shoulders relax.
You want to be a in good place to make good decisions. I found
- going for individual counseling, - working with the counselor and psychiatrist on the correct dosage of medication, - talking to DB coaches here, - posting on my own thread and providing support to others here - reading books suggested - reaching out to friends and family for support, not sympathy - getting out of my comfort zone - opening up spiritually - being a good and caring person - being grateful for what I have - slowly learning how to forgive
all helped me tremendously during this painful emotionally chaotic time. The healthier I became, the less I tried to control others. (Co-Dependent No More is a great read with lots of 'ah ha!' moments).
What he's done is very hurtful and confounding. Find your focus, create a firm foundation, understanding of what is good for your son, what is good for you. Make your health.. mental, emotional, physical a priority. Do the same for your little boy. Children come first.
Be in a good place to make good decisions.. one step at a time.
