OK. Now I am home. He said I made it seem like I was going to buy a gift card and I would be back. That is such s**t. He told me to go. I called him from the store to see if he needed any medicine. He knew where I was. Now I walked in the door and he is mad. I was kind of incredulous. I said but you told me to go. He said don't put this on me. and he went to bed and that's that and I guess I'm sleeping on the couch. I don't wanna feel this bad anymore. i quit my job and followed him halfway across the country and now I have NOTHING, so I can't leave him and I don't want to but I don't know how to keep on doing this. What the F*** is the problem anyway? He leaves me in the complete dark I know nothing and I just have to smile and wait for him to work things out and I don't have any idea what those things are! I think he wants to leave. I think he was molested. I think he is still in love with his ex-wife from 15 years ago. I think he thinks I'm disgusting. ugly. high maitenance. demanding. I don't know.
Sorry for the stream of consciousness. I just had to get it out.
