Gosh.. thanks guys! Dawn.. I will be free Monday!! So, I DID end up making myself avaible, as he wanted to see me, but then I was too tired to do much tonight anyway.

Rob.. yes, it IS a new R... we just did something I dont think we ever did.. we cuddled on the sofa, chatting, but mainly kissing and snogging like teenagers for an hour!

So I dashed home to get ready and had to cook when he arrived. We had a nice snog at the door.... but again, it was me that started it, like at his house. He was just hellbent on squeezing and hugging me (he keeps doing that, like its a comfort to him, or a relief or something, accompanied by "mmm" noises). So as I cooked, he insisted on unloading and reloading my dishwasher, cleaning out the cat bowls, checking out my dodgy bike brakes, cleaning the sideboards.. when I sat down to eat, he then washed up all the oven dishes and glasses I havent had time to touch..(his LL is Acts of Service!).

He said, "I hope you dont mind me doing this? You know how I like a nice tidy up" (LOL!).. I made sure to say, no and of course thanked him alot. He made me several cups of tea whilst I ate and he chatted to me.

Then, I had to glue the pages for my book.. I was worried I was boring company, but he persuaded me to do it and helped...he weighted the book with his toolbox.. which as he said, was still in the cupboard. He also went through some cupboards looking for some extension cables I didnt even know were there.

The whole evening was like he had never left. EXCEPT, he didnt take his shoes off. And when we were snogging, I was being pretty keen but he pulled back and had to tell me he wouldnt be staying the night. He had said he felt poorly (again!) and added that he "didnt feel very sexy".. which worried me. I must have pulled some kind of face at being rejected physically, because he said "oh no! I've embarressed you now and I really dont want to do that".. and then proceeded to snuggle up to me for more kisses before leaving.

So.. I was just honest and real and probably reacted in all the wrong ways, but as I was then concerned for him being ill, he did a lovely thing that I have missed, which of course he would do at times over the years.. he lent his head on my chest and I wrapped both my arms around him and kissed his head alot. It was all just very loving really. But didnt seem to be much passion there. Should I be worried!???

Sorry for the long post! I'm not sure how this is going so far. Good and bad and just very very wierd. Nothing said so far. I smile alot. He worries about me.. like my work, my back, my house.. I stubbed my toe.. and every little thing I just smile and say "Oh, I'm fine!".. which is 1,080 for me, but I am fine!