No, I have no intention of locking myself in the house. I don't do that now so why would I in the future. Put myself back out there? No, not doing that either. Not as far as men go. My insecurities and fears run far too deep to do that. I have friends, it's not the same kind of comfort, but it will have to do.
FYI - I came home at lunch to drop my mom off and found all of his stuff gone again. Yes, he's back with the broom and claims he broke it off because it was mostly his fault and she wanted him back no matter what...blah blah blah. Of course, he tried to lay it on me that I wasn't as comfortable with having him there as I said I was and that he felt he really needed to go. Whatever. I told him not to put his feelings on me. The convo went downhill from there. He's a mess, she's a mess, they can me messes together. He keeps trying to get me to make friends with her. I kindly told him that I do not make a habit of making friendships with adulterers. Those are not the people I choose to trust and associate with and to stop trying to push her down my throat. He has gone on and on about it, bringing up ancient history, he won't let it go. I don't understand it and I don't want to.
One thing is for certain, I won't put myself into that situation again. If he breaks down and threatens to go back to California again I will help pack his bags!
T19 M15 S19 XH47 M43 bomb12/4/07 PA5/07 S12/26/07 D final 11/17/08 Back together with no defined R 05/2010 confused....to say the least!!!
