Then she turns the conversation on to me - saying do you have any idea how much I hate you? I tell her yes and i understand why you do. Then I get a you ruined everything. All I could do was agree with her and change the subject by telling her I would rather not discuss this now while I am at work, and later would be better.
Next time listen better and think before you speak:
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saying do you have any idea how much I hate you?
No I don't know how you much you hate me. I am sorry you feel that way. I can understand some of the reasons why you are upset.
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you ruined everything.
I understand you are hurt but I won't accept that I ruined everything. I am still willing, able and capable of restoring our M from my end.
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but does it ever get any easier if so when?
when you realise you only control yourself - feelings, thoughts and actions when you understand why you take the actions you are taking when you detach - when you realise it's not all up to you when you let all the negative emotions out - anger, fear, frustration, bitterness, guilt, shame
You can handle it. Cheers Coach
M22,H45,W45 S21/18D12 Retain faith that you will prevail in the end, regardless of the difficulties and at the same time confront the most brutal facts of your current reality, whatever they might be.
