Remember ME....when you begin to lose all hope that you and your H will reconcile....Remember ME.
When you think your Hs heart is cold as ice towards you...Remember Me
When you think he doesn't love you anymore...Remember Me
When you think you've made a fatal back step....Remember Me
When you think there is no 'going back'....Remember Me
Remember that after June 21, 2002 MY world fell apart. That for weeks on end I neither saw nor spoke to my H after throwing him out. I considered homicide and suicide over the next few weeks following that day. I beat myelf up, tore my H to shreds in my mind then rode the nightmarish roller coaster that we all get put upon for months and months on end. I looked in my Hs face and saw complete and utter distain for me. I listened to the crisp and hardened words he spoke. I saw a stranger that looked like my H but the man inside his skin was totally alien to me. THAT MAN didn't love me, didn't acknowledge me or the years we'd been together (more than 20), to THAT MAN I was the root of all evil that had stiffled his life, left him feeling cold and alone in the world...I was that man's enemy. The months that have past since June of 2002 have seemed endless. They've been unexplicably painful, but slowly, very slowly the darkness that surrounded my life, and HIS, has begun to lift. Shards of light are breaking in all around us. HOPE has returned, shakey on it's feet, but it's here. So when YOU think you're covered in eternal darkness in your R....remember Me, because I WAS THERE....BUT, here I am today, standing in the light, with a man that just a few short months ago, was a complete and total stranger.
T2
