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[iwantittowork]

Thanks H20, well today is my 40th b-day, and so totally not what and where I was hoping to be for that.

The W got a card and books and had the kids sign it for me, that was nice. However, first time in 14 years that she has not so much said happy b-day or gotten a card for me. That's tough to take currently today.

I am trying to get into some Mindfulness meditation to try and help with the anxiety, fear, and other emotions, that seems promising but I have a long way to go, I have not even tried to meditate yet, just reading up no it, and trying to become aware of my breathing, and other things that are happening in the present moment. At times already that does seem to help a bit, so I think I'll continue.

I need to figure out what to do this weekend, as I just have no idea what to do at times.

I am going to lunch with some people at work, and hopefully that will raise the spirits and maybe get some laughs.