"how many people do you think they would committ to a marriage like that because of the precious flat and familiar? Not for what I signed up for."
So since you do not want flat and familiar, can you see your present relationship moving out of this state? Has it ever been out of this state?
I have another question (which may get me in trouble with some folks)....have you ever considered a lover? This way you could have all that is good about your husband and the excitement of a sexual relationship. I know, I am grasping at straws here.
It seems to me like you are done (in all honesty, I knew you were done for a while). It takes alot of effort to reconcile. Effort from both parties.... and even then there are no guarantees. In your case Maria, neither of you were ever in it 100%.
So, will Ali signal you when the stars line up so that you can drop your bomb? What is your plan?
