I am still here and I need some HELP

[whitneypinch]

This is what I had to write to me ex. I HAVE to ry to move on.

When you're warm and affection I start to feel we're getting closer. Then when you draw the line, I get frustrated and hurt and angry.
I don't want to keep putting pressure on you that you don't want, and I don't want to keep torturing myself.
I haven't let go of what we could have, so I can't accept what we have now. I've tried to do it on my own, but I need your help. Please pull back, limit our communications to what they need to be to run our lives and take care of the kids, and eventually, I will go through all the feelings I have to accept you're not in my life that way anymore and move on.
I'm sorry to have to have to ask this of you.
It might feel unnecessarily cold, but I think you'd be doing me a favour.
I know you want to be good friends and co-parents, but I'm not ready for that yet. You'll know when O am really ready. So will I.