You know one of the ironic things is that last night when I was blasting her on this guy. I accused her of sleeping with him while we were married.
She said that didn't happen and I needed to know that. I told her that sure you did. The guy texted you for an entire month before you said you wanted a divorce. You talked to him three times fro over 30 minutes each time. And then you made resevations to sleep in a hotel with him the day after you told me you wanted a divorce. Plus you stayed in hotel out there one month before our talk, most likely with him.
She said nothing happened before our seperation and it was important to know that. I asked her why is that so important? BECAUSE it is about her integrity. WTH???????
I laughed (unfortunately) and said integrity? you mean that this guy is texting you that he misses you and making comments in your texts about oral sex but because you took your wedding rings off before you slept with him ...that means you have integrity???
So she denied the texts and I proceeded to quote the two that most bother me. And would you believe there was a hush on the phone.... an errie quiet for several seconds.....
All this and I still know that somewhere in this whole mess I let her down as a husband. Of course, now I realize we both let each other down and I am starting to believe she is going through some phase that the only way things would have been good is if I would have done everything and completely taken care of my daughter.... I would have had to take all of lifes burdens and even then she wouldn't have been happy. I know I wouldn't have.
so I think unfortuantely my marriage is a goner. My relationship with this woman has been run through a shredder and I need to figure out how to put this in the past as a part of my life and move on. PH is right. I need to figure out how to talk to her only about my daughter and forgive her for this.
Find some way to point out to her when she is blaming me or trying to boss me around, which when I pointed this out to her she said she didn't meanto come off like that. And just get over this!
