thanks so much! I thought I was good and ready to move on but obviously I am fooling myself.
This woman blames me for everything bad that is happening in her life.... There is no changing that.
I guess the trigger last night was my daughter stood up to her and told her she was a bad mother and then started comparing her to me. So she decided that I was sabotaging her.
It's funny though. Today, one day after she accused me of telling our daughter about her trips, my daughter calls to say goodnight. She tells me she is falling asleep in mom's bed because mom is there packing for her trip this weekend. DOES ANY OF THIS CRAP SINK INTO THEIR HEADS?
Yep, I brought daughter to her house after piano lessons and it was chilly....brrrrr!
Would like to say I don't care but I do. Not that I feel the way I do. She is in the most selfish frame of mind I have ever seen anyone in (even her). But this is the one person I would have never hurt and obviously I just don't get it because I do. Even though this crap needs to be said I wish I could say it nicely.
I can't understand why it has to be like this. The one person I thought was the most important person in the world, is convinced that I am a selfish sob that I betrayed her and ruined her life.
When really the situation is that she wanted someone to take care of our daughter so she could go chase her fun, career, and fun.
Geez... I am all for her leaving and finding something that makes her happy. Somehow I don't think she is but maybe I am fooling myself and I really don't want to believe it because it makes me a failure as a husband.
Why does something like this conversation drag me right back into the place where I feel like a failure. Her whole world is centered around her, so why do I feel like I lost something so valuable? I know if I entered into a realtionship with 20 women that 19 of them would treat me better than this one.
Back to square one... Have my daughter this weekend and for the week. Start normalizing again. Try to put her back out of my life again,
Crap it has been 7 months.... why is this still a problem in my life? No need to answer that one... just feeling sorry for myself anynomously
