Thank you for reminding me of my need to be the strong one, for now, it is my only choice. It seems I keep coming here with the same issues, the same complaints, maybe worded a little differently, looking for THE answer to the way out of this mess. And there is no easy way out is there? I'm going to have to feel and fight my way through this whole mess.
In my heart I know H wants to come back, will come back, but is looking to me to lead the way. Today I just don't feel like leading him anywhere.
When H said he went to put up tree stands yesterday, my heart did lift a little because it meant he didn't spend the day with OW. He wasn't with her all day Saturday either which seems strange, but then again I have no idea what goes on over there either.
H was the one that said "if we're going to do things separately than I might as well not come back" thus the thought to invite him to the concert. He doesn't really like Shania so maybe I won't, my sis is going with me anyway. She would give up the seat if someone else wanted it and I wouldn't be disappointed at all if H didn't want to go, just trying to put an offer out there to see if he'll bite. So maybe I should use different bait (aren't you proud of me KAW?). My H is a little bit like a muskie, they're hard to catch, you can throw all the muskie baits at them that you can think of and they don't bite. When you've completely given up and stopped trying then you end up catching one and boy do they put up a fight. I think maybe the way to go is to invite him to do something with son and me.
