Hi Lost41, Sorry to hear you are having such a rough time.

As other will tell you try to stick to 1 thread & newcommers is the best place. It's much easier that way.

Try not too worry so much about your H. Work on yourself, that is the 1st step. Dwelling on the "whys" will not help.

Stay strong & work on a good PMA!

Me39, XH45
Kids 3 dogs, 2 cats
Divorced 6/4/09
Tricky thing is not how you live, but how you live with yourself. (POTC)