Oldtimers: IS Mlcer good parent after crises?

[peacetoday]

As time:
Thanks for visiting
you gave me a huge laugh! appreciated!

Cinders thanks for posting:
Ues the pull is strong
It has taken me from Saturday until today to turn it over again
BF--Yes this attraction may help the survival of the species, but I am past that point and this time around I want a healthy R
so maybe we need to run from attractions
and make choices from a higher place
easier said than done
If I can let this one go: I will have more faith in my myself and trust for my choices

XH here tonight
I make a mistake every time I ask this man for anything
i mean anything
My s7 birthday party on Sunday
I ask XH if he would mind picking up the pizzas
he said No he cant
so
I reacted by saying next year we can celebrate with seperate parties
he left
I dont know what happened to us
we got along so well for 2 years until D
maybe he is angrey at himself
maybe he is angry that I asked L and he agreed to wait for overnights till next June
maybe it b/c he is in huge debt
I dont know
but he appears to be angrey a lot more than Ive noticed in the past
and we have a harder time communicating thna in past
maybe b/c im not actively DB or going out of my way to iniate any conversations
Im just going on with my life
Im always cordial but I am not trying anymore
I have nothing left for this one-sided R
I would like us to be friends again, in Gods hands
peace