WAW - Very confused and devastated - pt 9

[confusedinpa]

It's past the time that had been calling in the past. She hadn't done it every nite, but I think this is the first time she missed 2 nites in a row, if you don't count the days that we actually spend time together as a family.

I DID NOT call. I was tempted a few times, but know that it's not the right thing to do. I do have to remember I have to work tomorrow so I can't have a few drinks to try and take the edge off. Plus I know that's not that answer (AND NO THAT'S NOT WHAT I NORMALLY DO)

I am hurting today - I think the most since she moved out over 5 weeks ago. It doesn't make sense. I would have thought it would have gotten easier. Not harder.

Is this normal?!?!