Yes it was an awakening, I do feel more alive than I've felt for years.
Quote: While my Hs 1st A was going on something inside me 'knew it' I even confronted him and he denied it, but all along I was right and at the time, I actually DIDN'T care, as long as he left ME alone. Back then, I didn't care if he was breathing or dead.
I, also knew it inside, and asked H and he laughed. But I felt the same way you did, as long as he left me alone, I didn't care.
I think I can see why my H is hesitant to believe in the changes, I mean it's only been six months, you can't even have a baby in six months. I am 45, so to make such huge changes in six months is pretty amazing, isn't it? Part of it was also that I was tired, tired of being resentful, tired of being negative and I didn't want to live the second half of my life the way I lived most of the first half. Now the changes are for me and me alone, for better or worse, in sickness and health, in good times and bad, for the rest of my life. Amen
