Not only go to church to praise God, but also ask him for guidance and assistance in finding your way. Ask him to provide you the strength to reach out to others in our church for assistance. Ask him to assist you in letting your xh go so that the both of you can go on your separate travels in order to meet back at the fork in the road at a later time.
Ask him to provide you with the stength to help you with your son and nephew. For those two young men need you now more than ever.
Sit quietly, the answers will reveal themselves when you least expect them to. The past is gone, the present is a gift and you need to focus on today, allow the future to reveal itself when it is ready.