You are are right and I know what I need to do. It will be so much better when I have more money and more time to do things at a normal hour of the day. You know what someone said to me last night...they said that they were thinking back to when me and my xh got maried 20 years ago. He was driving an old crappy van and living with his mom when I met him (nothing wrong with living with mom), but the van was crappy. We got married and accomplished soooo much. Nice home, nice vehicles, a nice life basically. Now is back to driving a old car again. Not that an old car matters, but its like he has stepped back in time and reversed his life.
I dont know if I ever told you all this, I forget details sometimes, and here details are VERY important because people need both sides of the story to give a correct opinion. After my xh dropped the bomb we live together at right 3 weeks or so. We didnt sleep together. He even told me he wanted me to keep coming to him for my needs. He said he wanted this, because that causes people to go elsewhere. I was like WHAT? This did not make sense to me at the time, because he just told me he wanted to seperate. That shows how mixed up he was. When we finally seperated into different houses, he cried. I cant help but believe he did not just walk away and this is a mlc. I know it doesnt really matter except maybe I have a chance at saving my family one day. Either way, I am going on with my life. I do still think about him and pray for him every day. I do still love him, and alot of my family and friends dont understand that and think I am crazy. I am sorry guys but I still want my family back. If this makes me crazy then so be it. I cant help it. I dont sit and constantly dwell on this. I get out and go and I have a life. I just want my family back soooo bad. I am sure you all can understand. I am off to Church to praise my GOD!
