Hello everyone! Thanks Rob, Kat, T.. K - you're beads have arrived! The book didnt, but yes, the kama sutra would come in handy, haha! Although, he seems to think I do it just fine already, so it really is just my own insecurities and not something in reaction to him. Anyway, he did tell G he got bored of s*x with her, and he never got bored of it with me in 9 years, so I should focus on that hey!!
I have been working soooo hard, I am exhausted but VERY happy with my work.. I spent 3 hours today hammering a large piece of lead into the shape of a book (3'x2'). I didnt even think about him all day I was so busy. He emailed me, but I never checked, then he phoned and got VM and called again and got me. Then just called again after football for a chat for 3/4 hour. His message was very sweet, with a soft voice. His email had "me x" on the end. Last night, he said "Night night, sweet dreams" which was a shock, because of course he never wished me "night night" for the whole time he was gone. So wierd how these little things highlight JUST how controlled he was in communicating with me when he was 'gone' and how he is suddenly expressive and his old self more (not entirely yet) now he is back. So wierd. The mind of a WAS hey.
We were just discussing some jobs we have to do on our houses back home and he said he would do them as "I will be going home then because SIL baby is due" (8th June)..I was taken aback so didnt say anything and he actually said "What? Whats wrong? You've gone quiet?" I said.. oh, just, I wasnt sure who would do the jobs, me, or you, or.. " and he said, "well you can come with me" ..sounding a little embarressed to have had to spell it out. So that would be the first time we go home together, as a couple, which is a massive milestone. We went home a few times since apart, he would drop me at his Mums and then go to his.
So this convo threw me a bit and I couldnt hide it, it was the "I will be..." it makes me nervous. I dont know how well I am doing, navigating these tricky early days with him.
At least he emailed and phoned me 3 times today, I didnt contact him at all!!
