d-day coming soon - help !

[misshim]

Something just dawned on me from other people. Is H being this attentive because he knows the D-day is coming. His freedom is soon to be his?? I still have his marital settlement agreement that he wanted me to look over (2 weeks ago? ) he hasn't asked for it back.

For him to compliment me in any way is beyond anything he's done in the past. Maybe he feels less threatened by me because he knows divorce is coming. Or maybe on the slightest wim he might reconsider?

I know I need to GAL. I really do try (I think). It's alittle hard with my D4 - she goes to bed 7:30-8pm and my 1 horse town closes up by then. (except the small bar & the other strip club) and I don't want to go there. Since I get up @ 4:30 to feed the cows and get ready for work along w/D4 it's really hard just to keep my eyes open @ 9pm. I try to read when she goes to bed but I usually fall asleep. Pathetic I know. When I have time then it's barn cleaning or other outside chores that I have been neglecting. Like me cleaning my house. I pick it up but it needs a real good cleaning but after barn cleaning and yard work I'm too tired.

Maybe my lawyer will make him pay for a maid for me. Ha-ha, sure would be appreciated. Laundry & scrubbing floors & tubs. Oh well that's another dream. I actually never minded it before but now time seems alittle on the limited side !

I'm just venting - ignore me