Just got to get a few things off my chest that are troubling me.
In early April, my H said he was thinking about sending M some flowers for her birthday since she was having such a hard time and I said I'll do it! She got nicer/more expensive flowers than I got for mothers' day.
When I think back to M's behavior at my candle party now I know why she was acting so unlike herself - incessant talking which is not at all her. She's definitely not a people person. I also think it's pretty telling that I mailed her candle stuff to her and she didn't call to thank me or question why I mailed it to her!
I'm going to have to admit that here's where my mind has gone today: what if this "working on our marriage" is just a big hoax so that they both can say they tried and the real plan is for the two of them to be together. I hate that my mind went there but it did!
I have to tell you to that in just one month's time from 4/13 thru 5/12 they spent 31 hrs of time on the phone! Now he says they're not talking anyone more blah, blah, blah - but of course he could be calling from the phone at his business and I'd never know.
How do you regain trust back?!!I hate that I'm driving myself crazy with this! Only four more hours to our counseling appointment!
