Well I've been out of town for a few days and then just kinda messing around the house not wanting to post here for a bit. I've been in a funk lately, just a real uncomfortable mood, not sure what is wrong.
I've been staying out W's way of r about week now. Last week she called and made it sound like an emergency, turns out D8 needed her yearbook money. That pissed me off. I was really upset that she had been treating me like an errand boy, but I didn't say anything. I kept my cool, although I did hang up on her when she called that day. Then last Thursday we went to S5's pre-k graduation. My IL's were there. It was good seeing them. My son got up when it was his tuen to announce his name and tell the crowd what he wanted to be when he grows up. he said his name and then yelled out I WANNA BE PRESIDENT OF THE UNITED STATES OF AMERICA! That was great, the whole crowd stood up and cheered. My W had been texting the whole time we were there, I didn't say a word. She did ask my MIL to let me sit by her, not sure why. Then she leaned over and asked if I wanted to go to dinner afterwards. I said ok if everyone is ok with it. We went to dinner, we all ate, had small talk and then the check came. My W and I both reached for our wallets, I turned and spoke to D11. The check came back but I thought it was supposed to be split in half between the W and I. No way, I paid for the whole thing. I was pissed but kept my cool.
This past weekend I went out of town, back home for a few days. I needed to get away. Again, I was still feeling uneasy, had a burning sensation in my stomach. I went to mass on Saturday, played golf and had dinner with friends. I really missed my kids. I don't like being away from them but I did stay away so they could spend time with their grandparents. I got to visit with my oldest son in San Antonio. That was a nice time, hope to go back again in a few weeks.
Now I'm back at work and the W had been texting me. Turns out she is trying to get me to go to mediation on June 1. WTF! Then her attorney calls me and says that they can force me. I know in Texas, I can't make her stay married to me. But I'm still really pissed that we haven't been able to get the kids into to see the counselor yet and she is ready to live the single life. I'm starting to doubt the whole DB process. I don't think I will be able to keep the house. I feel as if this whole plan is falling apart.
I can't wait to go for a run today. I'm growing increasingly frustrated and angry with my W. It's all about her, her, her...even my D's today mentioned that she has changed since the move.
