I'm here........

[SueS]

Hello Everyone!

Gosh, I didn't realize that it had been over a month since the last time I was on.

Puppy, I promise I wasn't avoiding your comments. Your comments below are so true. His actions are showing a lot.....and it's not good. Cold, snippy, rude....etc. He's denied seeing OW but I've seen proof otherwise....and I've called him out on it using his own phone (texts/calls) and her new business card (in his pocket) as proof.

Only his ACTIONS will tell you what his true intentions are -- over time -- and unfortunately, right now his actions are still very fogged out and wayward.

So, what is SueS doing about it? Not much at this point. H should be starting a new job on Monday. My true thoughts are that as soon as he back up on his feet he'll be looking to leave, despite his words to the contrary. It will be hard but not unexpected.

I finished my 6 week running class last week and I signed up for the second session. It starts tonight. I'll probably collapse , but I'm going to give it my best shot. I've been trying to get out about twice a week on my own to run. I fractured a toe a few weeks ago though, so it was tough for a little while. I was considerate last night and asked H if he had any plans for the evenings this week. I have something each night for the rest of the week. Nothing late, but it still leaves him at home alone with D5 for an extra couple of hours. When I told him about continuing with my running classes he rolled his eyes. I asked him why he can't just give me one shred of a "that's great" or "atta-girl" for getting up off my behind and at least trying.....and continuing now for 7 weeks. I just got a blank stare at the tv.

I went out to South Dakota for my niece's high school graduation a few weeks ago. What a blast. I had so much fun and I got to see my best friend too, as her son also graduated the same weekend.

D5 starts back to daycare next week and she'll start t-ball in June. She's so excited and I'm excited for her. She's getting anxious to start kindergarten in the fall.

My father went to have his normal 6 month check up at the Mayo Clinic. He's 2 yrs, 4 mos. post surgery for cancer. They originally gave him a clear report, but now have him set up for a throat scope, as they're worried about something on his test that could turn out to be cancer in his esophagus. Just waiting for that on June 1.

So, that's where I'm at. One question is this. Probably something I should know the answer to being a "veteran" of this whole mess. When I go away (or H for that matter) H will call 2-3 times a day. When we see each other for the 1st time after we've been gone, he's nice for a couple of days. Then, BAM, back to his old rude, nasty personality.....as if I'm not any better than a lump of crap that he needs to avoid so he doesn't step in it. I know, an odd comparison, but that's how it feels. Why? Why be nice? Why call? Why turn so quickly? A few weeks ago I participated in a consignment sale. I busted my tail to get all my things together and tagged. H helped me (offering on his own) to do what I needed him to do. He was helpful, friendly, kind.....etc. I left the next day for graduation. He called, was nice....etc. I came back and 2 days later her turned into .....well, you know. What I don't understand is the fact that he came back to us. I wanted my family, but didn't beg or even ask him to come back. I was on my own. He was free and clear to do whatever he wanted, which is what he desperately wanted for months. Why take all of this out on me when he made the decison to come back? It just still all confuses me. It doesn't really make me anywhere near as sad or angry, just still confused.

Well, back to work. I'll check on everyone's threads to see how you're all doing. Stop by and say hi!!

Take care! -SueS