Kass, thanks for your kind words. I think that it's the selfishness of those that hurt us that leaves a bitter taste. I am bitter towards my W for what she did 'for herself' (she told me it was about time she had some independence and that our marriage had 'run its course') All the time being non indepedant and having another man waiting in the wings.
I know that this bitterness is only hurting me, and I am slowly releasing it and finding new things to concentrate on. It takes a long time though.
The result of this bitterness is that I AM pleased to see my W suffer. I know she ran off into the sunset knowing how broken I was and didn't look back with any great conviction. Knowing that, I do take a weird sense of satisfaction knowing it hasn't worked out to be the wonderful place she thought it would be.
My other situation is that she now expects me to be caring and supportive of her 'problems' and understand that it's a hard time for her and show compassion. Well I can't do that. I have been to hell and back over the last 10 months and it's left me bereft of ANY compassion for her.
I don't exactly dance around at the fact that she is suffering, but I do think that it serves her right to be without the full support of a close knit family group in these bad times. I cannot find it within me to symapthise for her. I FULLY support my 2 sons in caring and looking after their mother and would NEVER let them know my true feelings. That would be grossly unfair on all of them.
I also just wish that EVERYONE'S suffering would end and that we could all just find some peace.
