WAW - Very confused and devastated - pt 9

[confusedinpa]

Well, just got another email from her - just nonsense type stuff of a forward of a joke. I didn't reply, nor do I plan to.

I don't understand why she's does stuff like this. Perhaps she thinks it's innocent and doesn't truly understand that continued contact from her makes me believe there is hope. Or she really thinks that we will be just best friends raising our boys in seperate households. Or she is trying to hurt me as revenge for making her feel neglected all these years.

Before everyone jumps on me with their 2x4's, I know I should not waste any energy into trying read her mind or rationalize with irrational people (Thanks PMA_Baby!). It just really hurts my heart. Just when I felt that my heart couldn't get broken anymore, she finds another piece to rip out.

I need to get focused on the positive. I will see my boys tonite. My 3 year old has baseball, which he absolutley loves. My 7 year old is now just 2 weeks from getting his cast off, just in time for soccer to start! The boys will then come home with me until Sunday morning.

Sobbing with a smile.....