Calling him was one of those things I regretted once I left the voicemail. I wrestled with making the call, but did anyway. The thing with calling his cell phone is, if I don't leave a message then he knows I called anyway doesn't he, if it's shut off--that missed call thing? Maybe not. So I hate to make the call and then hang up. And, it was a pursuing thing, I felt it inside..need to trust my intuition more.
Quote: That said tho, I'm concerned about being around when he is in one of his temperamental moods and calling you names.
I just feel so trapped, so attacked and yesterday it was really hard to not attack back. Why is dbing so much easier when he's not around? Dbing for real is most definitely harder. I felt scared when he attacked, fear took over my body, I could feel it and I felt like a trapped animal.
I do have plans this weekend, tonight a fish fry at my parents with sibs, tomorrow night a party at gf's house for football and drinks. Sunday I'm thinking of driving up to visit a friend, he fell from his tree stand last weekend and broke his pelvis, in my H's hometown and possibly stopping into see H's parents. I was thinking of calling H to see if he'd like to join us on Sunday...good idea? Bad idea? I didn't bring any of my plans up with H last night either. He did tell me he had to work tomorrow though...to call or not to call. Is it pursuing or not? He also needs to put up tree stands, which he might do this weekend, even so I'd like to help him...should I offer. Maybe something like, I'm thinking of going to (hometown) on Sunday to visit so and so who is also is a friend of H's on then visiting your parents, would you like to go with us? Or, if say the above and then say if you're going to be up there putting up tree stands I can come and help if you need help with them? Can you tell I'm a little put off by yesterday's interaction about the phone call? Part of me doesn't want to, wants to just back off completely and the other part says to try to draw him back.
