fb2, I meant, when you are in a Marriage it's a choice, a decision to make sure love doesnt die, to "maintain" it. When it's gone, no matter what I chose 7 months ago, no matter how hard I am trying to convince me it's there, I cant do it. Maybe if he helped back then, it would be different but even when he is nice now, and we ...hug for example (not very often as you know), my inside is dead. It feels good to be hugged, I suspect I would feel good if anyone hugged me at this point, but no, I dont feel anything special for him. He is family, my H, the guy I know so well, the guy I used to be crazy about. Maybe he is not teh same anymore either. Who knows?
Rob, mish,jeff, kat (yes we will be fine), fb2, I am calm, I am ok. I think the fact that he is nicer/warmer to me this week and I still feel nothing made it a bit clearer... K
