I read your post early this morning, and needed to think a while. I think that Rob has said about what I was thinking.
I think that no matter what you choose, there will always be "what if" thoughts. It's our human nature, I think. The same thoughts can help us make a future would not have expected, or can hold us in the past. So, it still comes down to how you choose to deal with them. I would say that after this length of time, it feels less and less likely that the "what ifs" are going to happen.
I think you can choose to make your own "what ifs", taking care of yourself, and your kids. It sounds like part of the WA script, but they will be ok, as Rob said.
I can understand if you choose to wait a while longer, and I can understand if you don't. You are the only one that can see and feel your life. No matter which you choose, it isn't wrong.
