WAW - Very confused and devastated - pt 9

[confusedinpa]

She isn't going anywhere anytime soon and if she we're you have no influence right now.

Well maybe she is going somewhere soon - I got an email from her that said "I won't be at baseball tonight" I waited about an hour before I replied "Thanks for letting me know" (talk about faking it until I make it)

Of course all the crazy thoughts are going through my head that maybe she has a date or something. Up to this point, I'm fairly certain there isn't someone else, but I can not be 100% certain. I wanted to call her and ask why, but unfortunately its none of my business.

I have to remember, she has moved out and filed for divorce. That's the reality and the only reason why I've seen her is to do things with the kids. So I need to keep working on me to be the best me I can be, for me and the my boys.

So why is it so hard?!?!?!