Nicole- The upside of treading for me is that it requires me to exercise emotional muscles and impulses that have gotten so weak. Do I want to live with this level of emotional challenge forever, no. But, I feel I will come out of this stronger. For some it seems like self-inflicted torture. For me it is more like, maybe giving birth. I chose to go natural both times. First time, I felt that ring of fire and pushed like a maniac and jacked myself up a bit. Second time, I actually stopped in that space, looked in the mirror, faced the feeling and came out much better.
So in this sitch taking it slow, watching the moments, learning, feeling the pain, not running away from it...as long as I don't become paralyzed or stagnate, it can be a real growing experience.
