You pray God can forgive you? God already has. I understand where you are. Get on your knees and just talk to him. Give your burden to Him. You don't have to have fancy words.
A lot of times I just say God, change me. Change me in a way that would be pleasing to you. Sometimes I just say the pain is too much, Lord, I need you.
You wish for another chance? Wishing won't get you one. Now THE WORK, the GAL, the growing just might. She loved you once. You do not know the end yet. God has the road map, so just step out on faith.
Incidentally, fishing is an awesome healing activity. Do it as often as possible.
Me 45, H 46, S 23, M 26, Together 30, Bomb 6-2-08, S 6-19-08; H left 12-29-08. H home 12-09, Still MLC in 2012! Me- I have my big girl panties on. Bring it.
