mdoodles--luv you sister so I'm going to say this--knock it off, cut the crap and say bye to all your guests at your pity party.
This is me shaking the crap out of you, get it together. YOU ARE GOING TO BE OK.
You can do this, you just have to calm down and think.
Read DB or DR again. You have to figure out your More of the Same Behaviors and STOP IT. Stop talking about OW, stop talking about R/M and when he comes home today, just say, I was worried about you last night. A call or text would have made me feel better, but I'm glad you're ok -- then walk away or change the subject.
It's time to repackage you. Take the parts of the old you he fell in love with and parts of the new you that YOU love and put them together. Be the chick one million men would kick your H's butt for.
Snap out of it. This is your life--don't waste one more second of it.
