Quote: And for what it's worth, it could well be that your H was grumpy later in the day because feeling so good earlier runs counter to how he's "supposed to be feeling", if he really wants "out".
Also the fact that I'm out there having fun. I don't think he likes that either. I have been saying that this has been a great summer, but in thinking about it last night it's been more of a bittersweet summer hasn't it? Today I feel sorry for the guy, sorry that he's in such a mess, sorry that he has to go through what he's going through. I also think that all of his reasons for his unhappiness are just excuses. We could have had a perfect marriage and he still could have come up with a reason to be unhappy. OW is a manipulator and only cares about herself. She preyed on H in a time when he was unhappy and at a low point and is using him, too.
I'm trying my best to let him figure things out for himself, he needs to realize that happiness comes from within not from other sources. Will he be able to do this? I don't know, I like to think so, but I just don't know.
I feel different this last week, there's a new calmness about me, maybe I becoming more detached. Am I letting go of our old relationship, of H, feels like it. Our marriage is dead as KAW pointed out a few posts back, it's just taken me time to realize and let it go, to look to a new relationship with H--that's if it wants one. I'm slowing standing up for myself and not letting H treat me crappy anymore. Not taking things personally is getting easier--most days. I'm realizing I'm okay, I like myself, and I'm okay.
