I'm liking how the Kevin calendar is getting filled. Sure, some of it seems mundane like getting the oil change may sound that way. But for me as a woman, taking care of the cars sort of felt empowering AND did get me out and talking. I also felt like I was only counting on ME for making sure the car was working. And I came to know I could count on ME, so h would not disappoint and forget to do it. Know what I mean? This way, when you do something she usually did, like maybe preparing meals in advance (??) or whatever, you'll have it covered. And you'll feel "done" with that part and no way can SHE let you down b/c you took care of it. (Ever think of taking a cooking class? My dad became a chef after he retired from being a lawyer. He also taught others how to cook. Mostly ethnic dishes but he got really good and a little famous for it. Lots of couples met in his class and the men said it helped their social lives b/c their dates loved it when they cooked for them. AND The guys who were single and not dating, (some of whom were widowers or just lonely) said that eating their own well made food, made them feel like they were treating themselves to something healthy AND taking better care of themselves and their kids. Yes, you probably WILL meet women but that's another story for LATER on when you feel ready. I can see how it'd save you money AND feel good too.
But learning to like the everyday things, checking off the "boring or mundane" things may seem odd but It's a healthy thing Kevin. And you're also starting to do small but fun things like the game watching. For me it was certain chick flicks...I liked not having h around to stare at me like it was a waste of time OR like I should have done the film myself, etc.
Finding yourself, and the positives in your sitch, Starts out in small ways but you find things YOU like and feel good about. I also liked not having the toilet seat left up, but like I said, it starts out in small ways....
You will get there. Keep the focus on your faith, your girls, yourself, and YOUR future...WATCH FOR THE BACKSLIDES KEVIN, AND STOP THEM IN THEIR TRACKS...LIFE IS TOO SHORT FOR YOU TO SPEND TIME CATCHING UP SO MUCH. So, Be in the now, fully present IN the present and enjoy the NOW. No worries...you are doing what you can DO to create a good life for you and your girls so you can leave the results up to God. And if and when those fears start slipping in, kick them out!! And then RE-invite God back in to handle it all.
((( j ))))
M: 57 H: 60 M: 35 yrs S30,D28,D19 H off to Alaska 2006 Recon 7/07- 8/08 *2016* X = "ALASKA 2.0" GROUND HOG DAY I File D 10/16 OW DIV 2/26/2018 X marries OW 5/2016
