A bit of an update. We continue this little "dance". Last Sunday after our weekly family dinner and kid transfer I brought up the two of us going to dinner. She replied immediately "yes" then backtracked a bit as we discussed possible details. So at that time I left it be realizing she needed some room after accepting so quickly. Several days later via email we finalized the details.
Tonight we had that dinner at a french brasserie. It was a great meal and we both chatted away about work, kids, books we are reading and things we have going on. She even suggested we share a dessert. After dinner we went over to REI and did a bit of shopping. Shopping together was surprisingly like old times. Me helping her find clothes, offering advice and she choosing the things I find that she hadn't noticed. This was something she used to love me doing for her and I did it tonight without even thinking.
From there we went back to her house(our old house) and sat on the sofa chatting for a few minutes. I've felt all along that she was expecting me to lead a little in this "dance". So I said that I enjoyed our evening. To which she replied with a smile, I did too. I then said it felt like we are getting to know each other again and it was nice. Again she agreed with a bit of a smile. From there I left it alone but can't recall exactly who started or how we briefly discussed getting together again. But the feeling was we both have enjoyed these times and would like to continue.
So there, that's the dance we now dance. I do look forward to our next evening or event together and I do believe she does too. Where it all goes I haven't a clue. Like I said before, right now I am just enjoying the moment without expecting anything further. Sure I'd like something further but for now I'll just enjoy the moment we had.
Oh something to tell, there was a woman in the restaurant that during our separation she seemed to always gossip about us. We both disliked it greatly and lost a great deal of respect for her. The ex didn't see her but I did and I'll get a kick out of the gossip she'll start now.
If we really want to love, we must learn how to forgive. - Mother Theresa
