WAW - Very confused and devastated - pt 9

[confusedinpa]

Now that's the right attitude!!

Keep that attitude and it will surely start to show for all to see.

cire

Amazing how I'm still on this roller coaster of emotions. I did go to the gym and worked out for about an hour. I got home and ate dinner and cleaned up somewhat. But then she didn't call the usual time she had been calling for me to say good nite to the boys. I waited till their bed time and I called her to say goodnite to the boys. No answer on her home phone or cell. I waited about 10 more minutes when she picked up and just said can she call me back. She did call back and I said good nite to the boys.

This time around, my boys didn't pass her the phone nor did she call back tonite.

Guess this is the emotional co-dependency that Sandi had talked about.

One thing I had neglected to mention was that when she was here for the boys B'day party this past Sat, she had asked to use the bathroom upstairs. I said ok. I had forgotten to put away the "Hold on to your NUTS" book in the bathroom. I'm sure she saw it. I'm not trying to guess what she's thinking about it, but curious if anyone thinks this could have hurt.

I had really expected her to call tonite since I didn't answer her email or phone call this afternoon (she didn't leave a message). Guess I still need to figure out how to detach and/or drop the rope

I'm back to my "this sucks" mood.....

I know calling her tonite is the wrong move so I will NOT call. That's why I'm posting. Looking for some 2x4's to help keep me on the path......

Thanks