he is back, i think

[mdoodles]

i dont know how to do this again. i think i need to learn how to move on, not to divorce bust, but to move on.

i am venting here, bare with me.

i went through the detachment phase, the lrt phase, the drop the rope phase. i have been at this for almost 3 years, only i didnt know about the affair until april of 2008.

i had him back. i had him. we were starting a new life together, only she was never completely gone. maybe the affair was ended, but restarted.

what if we really proceed with the separation? what then?

i think then i would have to move on. meet new people.

im sure he will come my way again, it just seems that way, doesnt it? he never fully left me, he always left will most of his still still here.

im so confused.