Well today was ok. I am determined to not initiate contact for the time being. I have Divorce Remedy btw and am probably going to backtrack on some of the reading tonight and refresh my memory a little. I got out and hiked in a very nice woodsy area in my city and when I was done was winded and relaxed. I got a little discouraged this evening thinking how much I really just missed the good friendship we have (still have I am sure - it's just really early on in this situation to even say). Not to mention the friendship I have with my SIL who we had to take in. I now realize just how much patience will be required to get out marriage back on track and for me to want to make the changes for myself with or without her. I thought about emailing my wife about my desire to be friends and maybe chat but I decided against it. I now realize that giving her space is not only about loving her that much to allow it but it is an act of friendship as well.
