Hey dburt,,,as if I don't already have my suspiscions, you gotta go there and say he is probably having an affair??? Thanks ALOT!! LOL! Good thing I am at a place where that fact is neither here nor there. I am not going to get caught up in what he may or may not have done or is doing. I am here because I am fighting for my marriage, and in due time I will know if it is worth, if HE is WORTHY of me. I will decide. It is my choice...and I am in control of what happens. In fact, knowing what I know...and what i am learning thru DB, DR, and all of my many research sources, if he were to come back to me today I would likely (not SURELY!!) tell him that we are not ready. It has to run its course...maybe this space was a good idea...I just wish that we didn't have to make so many annoying descisions like renting 2 places, and spending alot of unnecessary money!!
The plan for the week is so far...H is in Vegas for work for the day today and will be back tonight...so he couldn't pick up the kids. Tomorrow I will pick them up and he may or may not try to see them. Thursday we have a "family open house" at the girls' school which I already told him i would meet him at and he had to take the girls overnight (1st time in new place) because I had plans. I definately plan on overdressing, looking HOT, and leaving a little early (so long as I don't miss out on anything)...but either way before H I guess. Then I also told him I was planning a trip outta town and he would need to take them for the weekend. I do NOT want to leave them at his new place overnight, but I realize it has to happen sometime and frankly I need a break. H has not had them overnight since he left me...a little over a month ago. (God, it feels like a year!!!) Can you say REALITY CHECK for the H.??? He will get a real dose of single parenthood...maybe he will like it, maybe not. Went running today...(I am an avid runner and haven't worked out in 2 months!!!) IT felt amazing and I can't wait to go tomorrow too!! Hope everyone is doing OK. WE WILL GET THRU THIS.
