How do I not let this control my every thought?

[Travis]

why does the WAS feel entitled to so much? Is it their way of dealing with the guilt? Do they feel as if they're entitled to shadow the shame and guilt they feel, trying to convince themselves that they did nothing wrong?
I just got off the phone with my WAW and she had the nerve to ask for money. In January I took a job with about a 50 pct. paycut. In three years, this job will pay 3 times what I used to make at old job. We discussed it and she had just gotten a pretty decent job, so we thought we could swing it. I busted my tail, studying for required exams for two months. In March I found out about OM, in April she left and filed for D two weeks later. I'm stuck in our home with all the bills with barely enough finances to keep the lights on. She has the nerve and calls me once a week to see if I can give her any money. I DIDN'T LEAVE! I WASN'T THE ONE WHO WALKED OUT THE F-ING DOOR AND THREW IT ALL AWAY FOR A MAN I'D KNOWN LESS THAN 3 MONTHS!
She says she needs the money for the boys. Let me have them! I will find a way to make things work and will ask for no child support. If I had been the one to walk away I don't think I could summon the courage to ask for anything. Sometimes I think she knew she was leaving and let me take this job knowing what kind of financial position it would put me in if she left. But the phone records and other evidence doesn't show it. Of course today she informed me of her and my boys new residence, if she gets custody. Amazingly, it's just a few blocks from OM's house in a town 30 miles from me. AAAAGGGGHHHHH!!!!!

Whew!!! Just had to get that off my chest since I'm not allowed to say it to her on the phone. And, here, I've been so calm and collected the last few days. I'm so mad right now I feel like just scream! I'm just so glad I have a place I can come and just vent.