Sandi's Place

[MrBond]

She told me he was an NS which I really don't care if he was the heavyweight champ of the world. I'd still take him on. : )

It's just she has seen evidence of his bad temper many times (he even threw a scalpel at someone in the operating room because he was frustrated with that person) and not only fell "in love" with him, but didn't believe me when I told her about the threat.

How far gone does someone have to be in order for them to not face up to reality. I mean, I know we didn't have the best M, but to choose this guy over me is ridiculous.

Oh well.

One thing she told me last night which unfortunately really got to me, is that she told me about a writing job in California that I should apply for. At first I was shocked that she even mentioned it, because it would require me to move out of state for a year. And given out sitch, I wasn't sure if she meant it as a chance for her to fool around on me more.

I don't know if she still considers herself separated and "available" just because she doesn't have her ring on and she has never told me why she's back in the house, but I thought it was extremely rude and insensitive for her to even suggest such a move.

It got to me so much that along with her ice-cold reaction to the dinner and show Saturday night, I felt this really strong anger building up in me. On my way in to work today, I left a message on her work answering machine about it. I just felt I couldn't stand to be disrespected anymore. I told her that I was no one's "second pick" and that before she dared me asking if I didn't think she could find someone else. I told her that I had no doubt she could find someone else, but that she would never find someone who would stay by her side after she cheated on them, never apologized, treated them with no respect and like dirt, etc.

I told her that I was here for one thing and one thing only. Because I was her H and that's what H's do. But that I would not continue to take her talking down to me. I told her that she was not like that before and that I thought she might be suffering from depression and need help. I also told her that she really should think about how she's treating me and if she wanted to lose the last and only friend she has left.

I know, my bad. I think the pent up frustration just really got to me.

So when I get home tonight, I'll either find everything gone from the closets, or she'll be acting like everything is fine. That seems to be the trend.