I'm Back

[houndfan]

I don't know how or where to start... we had R for 18 months and it was perfect in everyway. Well, about 6 weeks ago I was forced to move from our home to another state for a new job while traveling home on the weekends.
This weekend I went home, it was super W and I had some great conversations about what this new step is to bring our family. We were mapping out goals and ideas.
Then the bomb... on my drive back last night she called to question some financial transactions on my account (for those of you that don't know I have had issues with honesty in the past and money was a big deal).
My transactions were not out of bounds, my not communicating them was. Today she told me that she is done, not moving with the kids here next week. Not wanting to be with me, the whole 9 yards. The bile that spewed from her was so hurtful...
So what did I do??? Yep I cracked, I called and called and called... I think I have my wits back but I am devistated. I skipped out of work for the day, skipped school too. sitting in my room hoping.

This sucks!