Seperated

[LitlHopeAlwys]

Looking back at the Weekend with S3

Had a really great weekend.
Friday night W's uncle called invited me over for movie and pizza with family - declined even though he and I are pretty close, told him I would be uncomfortable with W's dad, grandmother and other aunt being there at this time. Agreed to meet for beers one day during the week.
Saturday night the W called me - actually talked for 20 mins - more then what we usually talk in a week lately.
Yesterday took S3 for a bike ride - we rode to where the W is staying (her mom's) - called her on the cell from around the block - she came outside and was thrilled to see him.
Before you jump on me - I know this can be seen as pursuing - wasn't met to be. She actually spent some time outside with S3 and I - almost 2 hours. She even put a towel in the grass for us to sit on and brought out a bowl of grapes. We just hung out and I tried to keep a PMA and "act as if" attitude and spoke about everything except for us. My S3 had butterflies that she suggested he let go, so he did that - kinda awesome watching him hold them and fly off of his hand.
He left before spending too much time there - hugged her goodbye - she actually hugged back a little for a change.
That night when dropping S off at W's he began to scream and cry - he wanted to stay with me. Pretty much just dropped him in the house and ran off - didn't want the W to see the tears it was bringing to my eyes the way he was acting.
All of that after the S3 saying over the weekend that mommy misses and talks about you, and that he wants to live at home with daddy and mommy again. Asking him where he hears that from and he says mommy - now I know he is a good story teller because he has told some good ones in the past. Believe 50% of what you see and even less of what you hear.

Now here is my backslide from everything that I have been working on. Last night I left the W a card on her card with an appointment for a day at the spa - I figured after being sick for the past week and stuck inside she could use the relaxation for herself. I booked her the appointment and just left her the card with the date and time. When I spoke to her earlier she did appreciate it, but has to work when I booked it for to make up for all the time out sick
I told her to just call and reschedule - that they will take care of her. Then she asks me what the head to toe package is anyway. Told her it would be One Hour European Facial, One Hour Massage, Spa Pedicure, Spa Manicure. Told her she deserves it and too just relax and enjoy it.
And after seeing her hands and feet yesterday she could use it - well that's what I thought didn't dare say it.

Back on to working on me, have tickets to baseball game for Friday, it's the W's time with son, hoping she will let me take him - but I'll address that with her over the next couple of days.