d-day coming soon - help !

[misshim]

I'm being mean about his stuff but even my layer said he needs to remove it b4 divorce. I know his clothes he doesn't need they are too big. He told me I could pack them up and get rid of them for him. I'm sorry, he walked and I have a full time job, a farm w/animals and a D4 to take care of. I'm not going to pack up his stuff for him. He wants me to do it, I know him well enough. It was always very hard for him to take charge of any situation. (that's why I was so shocked that he actually filed). I'll give him to the d-day and if not removed after that I think I will have a little "camp-fire" at the farm. All of his cologne in bathroom should really get the fire burning.

I'm feeling kind of nasty today. I'm starting to feel like I'm on my own roller coaster. Some days I'm sad, other days just plain angry. I know it's not good for me but sometimes I just need to feel angry. Almost gives me more energy to get the things done around the house that he never did.

Yea, it hurts me alot when he says those foolish comments about our D4. She loves him so much and it breaks my heart. I remember last wednesday night we were talking and he did say he was too young to have children (H just turned 37) I'm sure he's having MLC issues. I so wanted to tell him - Oh yea? I know you act like you're 15 years old, which is too young for children but you really are older than that.

He kept telling D4 that her daddy was crazy. I just bit my lip and smiled.

I want to be strong through this but I feel like I'm weakening and just want it over. Eggshell dance is too much