Aliveandkickin, there were times I wanted to die also. But I no longer feel that way. One night in florida I did call the suicide hotline because I was so depressed.

A lot of times I wonder if I am just plain not attractive anymore. I know I look older than I am. I don't exactly ever get hit on or flirted with or even so much as a smile from women.

I think alone time is great when you have chosen it, not necessarily been forced into it.

But none the less, I have to find a way to enjoy it.

Kevin

Me 36, W 37
M: 08/02/97
D13, D9
1st Bomb 02/08
Reconciled 04/08
2nd Bomb: 09/08
W filed for D 02/04/09
Separated 03/09
D dismissed 06/09/09
Still separated...