Things have been quiet for the most part. Im having my own issues as far as what has gone on, and Im trying to deal with it on a day to day basis.
Still no luck with the therapist. My insurance covers nothing of course, so Im own my own as far as that goes. Still working on it though.
We both have been putting in more effort to work things out differently, I just hope it stays that way. But you all know how things go.
Sometimes I just sit and wonder if this is all a big joke, and that he is blowing smoke up my hiney. I guess once you've been lied to, it just takes so dang long to get that back, you question everything and beat it to death. I know I have to stop that.
Ive been so tired lately, between the kids and doing stuff for the business, I can feel myself getting burnt out.
S3 has speech today, so im out again in another hour...
Hope everyone is doing ok. Have a good day!
me: 37 H: 44 Married for 18 years this june S7 S3 porn issues, and much more... since 7/06
Happiness can be found, even in the darkest of times, if one only remembers to turn on the light.
On the therapist, you might look for someone like my IC (MC) who is subsidized by a church to keep his rates very low. I pay him out-of-pocket as a result, which is very reasonable considering. (And I am not even a member of the particular church, BTW.)
Like I hear others say, a therapist is certainly going to be a lot less expensive than a D. So please keep trying.
NC~ no, D is not an option for me. Im far away from that. H needs to fight his demons inside of him and Im hoping this will help us.
Journaling...
Found yet another tick on S3...UGGGGGGG I can't stand it. It was in his belly button and full of blood... Got to take him to the dr. today. We have such an infestation around here, its so bad this year!!
But he's happy none the less jumping off my couch with a batman cape on pretending he's flying... ahhhh kids .. I could eat him.. so dang cute!!
supposed to go out to a local band tomorrow night, hopefully it will be a good time.
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me: 37 H: 44 Married for 18 years this june S7 S3 porn issues, and much more... since 7/06
Happiness can be found, even in the darkest of times, if one only remembers to turn on the light.
S3 is on antibiotics for the next 3 weeks.. ugg....
H has been so distant, I don't know what the frig is going on with him, sometimes I think he just stays with me because he doesn't think he can get anyone better...
i know I know...
me: 37 H: 44 Married for 18 years this june S7 S3 porn issues, and much more... since 7/06
Happiness can be found, even in the darkest of times, if one only remembers to turn on the light.
