It's really tough to wonder what they're thinking and why. Esp when you hear about them "sitting alone in a bar". This is why GAL is os important for you, it takes the focus off them. I am aware you may not be at the point where you can really do this, but you don't have to do it "well", just so something. One step at a time. When you fall, we'll help pick you up.
As far as getting along better goes, the pressure is off. Keeping away from R talks etc, helps to keep it off.
