I'm seeing your H wants to be w/you as a "family" but his lack of physical contact w/you is very troubling. Maybe you should do what you told Ali to do long ago...touch his Willy Wonka!
Not sure that would help either, but it was fun to type.
As for the Pearl Jam song, it is a very sad one when you listen to the lyrics so I can only imagine what is going through your head. I've had similar thoughts of sadness when listening to it over the past 18 months as well.
However, I've been reared in Seattle on grunge and won't stop listening to my beloved Pearl Jam just because of some silly, crazy, ex of mine!
