I don't know if you've read any of my tirades...but I go off in some of my posts like a lunatic....I say all the crap I'd like to scream at my Hs face...but I say it here on the board. I purge all the junk, all the hate, all the venom....here.
I go back and read my own posts sometimes and am amazed how differently I feel a few hours/days later and I'm ALWAYS glad that I didn't say a lot of what I'd written out loud, especially not to my H.
A few hours/days also gives me a chance to sort through whatever I was feeling at the time of the post to see how much of it was valid and how much was just plain and simple pain and confusion spewing out. Once I get a handle on it.. I decide if any of it needs to be said out loud and if it does I find a way to say it without the drama behind the words.
As crazy as I can get, I know that spewing some of this venom will only damage an already damaged situation. T2
