Game Over?

[dday101798]

t-minus 13 days.

Gave her the papers on Friday, didn't really seem to phase her at all.

Had a decent weekend with the boys although they brought nothing with them to occupy them during periods of "boredom" when I'm cooking or what not. Of course all they wanted to do was blow ridiculous amounts of money I don't have on things like amusment parks or something else extravagent. We did go to dinner on Friday (ran into FIL, that was fun), went to the movies on Saturday (BTW-Terminator Salvaltion is not that great), mini-golf on Sunday along with going out for pizza. Even just that makes me cringe to balance my checking account later.

On top of that, received another invoice from attorney that I have no idea how I'm going to pay.

My cousin thinks they are purposely guided not to bring anything with them as she thinks W assumes i'll just buy them things. I'd love to but I can't.

We chose a mutual meeting spot yesterday morning for w to pick the boys up. She was actuall on time and not hung over from a long weekend of partying, as presummed, she left immediately after I picked them up on Friday.

Made my ribs for the first time in 12 years yesterday. W said they were too expensive to make and she doesn't like ribs anyways, so I was never allowed to make them when we were together. Finally got the back yard under control and moved on to the front and looking good thus far.

I did find myself last night starting to go get depressed, just sitting there staring down that road of "Im miss her and want her back". But that's all I did was sit there and stare at the road, then I turned away and went my own merry way.

To know that everything is almost over and she did not show any emotion about it, then partied and spent the weekend with OM, I think one more of my finger has slowly let go what I shouldn't hold on to anymore.

She did tell me to "have fun" after she took the boys back yesterday morning. And I had to text as to how long to boil corn cobs (something she always did) and she did respond, but only to the question.

Will have to see her again tonight as I have to drop off S12's bike he brought over the weekend as it had a flat tire, again, and it doesn't fit in in OM's cracker box car.